My Toxic Lady

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 01:12:00 +0000

Howdy Blogosphere,

I think the word "howdy" seems like a funner way to adress my audience. Though i am strictly a non denominational secularist I do feel a bit caught up in some spirit or cheer and i blame it on the songs that I hear when I shop.
As my intimates know I was away at a self actualization seminar sponsored by the new age indigence fund. In other words, I was able to go and strive further to become whole for no funds, and for that I am so very grateful. newageindigencefund.com this is the most awesome of groups and though I still feel only approximately 3/5 whole I just know it's a matter of time till I regain the state of okayness that I had just 3 short years ago. Please donate to this fund. I can't guarantee it LOL but I'm pretty sure it will fullfill your karma quota. Around holiday time, that can't hurt, right?
I've mostly been on facebook and twitter and linkd and bebo and hulu and reddit and metafilter and nocallocalmeetup.com and kindredspiritsearch.net and likemindedlookup and I've been posting passionately on the Huffington post since my return(December 2nd) - basically just networking up a storm as my e-book sales have suffered mightily due to this danged recession and I've been feeling isolated since I found out that the offline folks I've considered friends have fatal to friendship personality disorders. Yuck.
I guess I feel bad that I've "abandoned" this blog as it has offered such refuge in such dire times. I think it's sort of wrong to just treat this like myspace and just move on so aggressively. I guess this is a swan song, per se, but at the same time a chance to re-introduce myself to a blog that has been so very kind.

still at a retreat and almost whole and healed

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 02:33:00 +0000

What ever happened to Kwanzaa????

Commons sense solutions to hand sanitizers?

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 14:22:00 +0000

reading regaining solvency in seven steps but I can't concentrate:

I’m very disappointed with my self . I’ve been on a raw foods diet since last Wednesday and yesterday I shared a woodfired pizza and a cabernet with an old friend-- not a friend that I know for long but an old friend as in an 87 year old woman I just met at a free non aggressive boxing class. That was bad enough – going off the raw food diet I’d planned to keep till January-- but then I guess the cabernet hit me very strongly and right after I dropped my old friend at the new age nursing home I thought I’d call it a night. I woke up with a headache my hardwoods covered in candy wrappers.

Unfortunately, it turned out to be a brownout rather (I’m half brit) a blackout and I remember my door bell ringing and two small things dressed as balloon boy and some new fangled vampire and then I remember a sweet tooth so ferocious and that I forgot to buy candy for the neighborhood children this year… then I remember a children’s scream and a plastic covered hand pulling, resisting, insistent... and you can figure the rest out. This happened when it was just turning dark outside and now it’s morning so I’m feeling more and more secure that the police weren’t called. If indeed they do come I will promise to return the candy and even buy the children more candy . I can’t identify the children so maybe the police having their contact info will be the best outcome as I can make amends.

I just saw a clickable link that says, “ people misusing hand sanitizer.” And I got all fired up with another e-book idea. Unfortunatly the link didn’t work so I don’t yet know exactly what ill can come of such misuse but it sure can’t hurt to have a helping hand and I’ve been using hand sanitizer since before it became a household name.

I doubt sex is involved in this hand sanitizer misuse, I'm now aroused. damn it!

checking in

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:26:00 +0000

The cosmos has been treating Tarra very oddly. Alisa installed some tracker and it seems that despite all my sharing of my journey this blog is not well read, to put in mildly.

There was a misconception that this blog was some satire and that led to confusion. I assure you that I am as earnest as a womyn can be. I don't know....

As you might know I'm almost finished with my E-book titled"do it yourself sweat lodge." I'm on the last chapter and I'm trying to include something about the Sedona incident without seeming to exploit the terrible tragedy. Mr. Ray was an inspiration to me back in my days of affluence and I even volunteered to hand out pamphlets at his " Journey into Wealth management" seminar. He wanted me to donate to him but my money was all tied up with Bernie at the time.

paraphrased lyrics what a hoot

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 16:04:00 +0000

An oldie but a goodie:

Where have all the comments gone, long time passing, where have all the comments gone long time ago.

Peter Paul and Mary?

Will google that later. Was it Joan Baez?

Fern Mcfern is being targeted by a brewing scandal and I'm not feeling so hot myself. Just stopping by to touch base with my reticent readers. LOL.

still maintaining an identity as a blogger

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 02:53:00 +0000

Hi. Very awesome week and feeling very greatful that I didn't die those many times I went to sweat lodges. I use to be addicted to those when I was affluent. I used to really feel as if I was a Cherokee goddess after one of those and that my perspiration was filled with the sins of my forefathers and was now used to nourish the sacred land of the Hopi. That's what we were encouraged to feel and it felt good.

I've been healing at a steady pace and hearing that my former life coach is now living in Livermore on disability has cheered me up immeasurably.

I've been online dating and a fiery chicana and I have been connecting somewhat. She is not vegan and though she says she's vegetarian she slipped up once and mentioned a yummy clam chowder . It could have been imitation clam but she had presented herself as vegan and then half way through our communication it was clear that she was mistaken and didn't realize that milk and eggs were a no no. I don't know. She's quite articulate and well versed in Far eastern philosophies but she is a bit materialistic and seems dissapointed that I am indigent.

We'll see. She gives great hugs or so she told me by e-mail. We haven't yet met as she lives in Michigan and I've been hospitalized soooo...

I'm just happy to feel like a womyn again and that I didn't die tragically while in the midst of self actualization.

Bye for now.

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noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 15:38:00 +0000

too much cork in the merlot at the 99 cents store.

I'll just be supporting till I'm all healed

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 05:26:00 +0000

http://eryneberlein.blogspot.com/

severe lifestyle challenges etc.

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 20:02:00 +0000

You can hear an echo in here. LOL.
I've been busy trying to make friends since many of those I called friends didn't call me when I was in the intensive care unit with a shredded hand. Not a one from my various book club, farmers market funding societies, or vegan potluck associations sent a card! I got a call from my family but I didn't take it because my therapist convinced me of their toxicity. A raw food entrepeneaur sent me an invite to a gala but it costs 400 dollars and so I can't go.
Major re-processing must be done and it's not easy when your hand gets all kind of strange pains and money really doesn't grow on trees.

I keep singing that sad song from the musical ,"hair, " How can people be so heartless...." you know the one where it kind of insults the liberal and how he only cares about causes and not people. I also keep singing the free credit report dot come song and I resent that.

I'm being really ungrateful. I'm so sorry. I just needed to vent here and as my readers know I haven't had the funds for my therapist since Bernie Madoff stole my fortune.

I've joined 4 social networking groups and let's hope meaningful connnections result, you guys.

Acai Berry's are vastly overrated

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 14:22:00 +0000

I am back and I feel whole and well again. At least, I'm pretty sure I'm whole and well. I sure devoured every book I could get my hands(hand, really) on at the wellness/wholeness section of the independently owned Cradle to Grave bookstore in Guerneville.
I'm pretty sure I feel whole but now I don't feel centered. Godess, seems to be putting thumbtacks on my journey's path but that just makes me raise the volume on my I pod when Desree or Mary J. Blige come on.

Basically, my injured hand only throbs at night and I have to apply compresses occassionaly( please see previous posts that discuss my hand issue)

It's great to be back and it's awesome that I now learned who my real friends are. I'm energized rather than deflated about that now and plan on some concentrated friend making. I need to find locales and groups that are conducive to deep and lasting friendships. Thank godess for Google. Now I just to find the right keywords etc. Hmmm. Let me go get my thinking cap. LOL.

So much to gab about but my hand is already starting to feel WIERD so I'm just here to warn other like minded womyn about the perils of Acai berry.

When pomegranate didn't cure my agorophobia I made the mistake of putting all my eggs in the Acai berry basket and let's just say that all I got was a fridge full of Acai products and greenish gray stools to show for it. I have to go(the hand) but I plan to expose Acai berry in a very incisive way. I think I will try to get this blog to have a more activist tone in the coming weeks.

for my friends in socal

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 03:07:00 +0000

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hand should be better by tommorow and I plan to touch base but please support this blog

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 05:17:00 +0000

http://lesbiansaidwhat.wordpress.com/2009/04/22/earthday/

Ms. Slovan if you're nasty

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 23:56:00 +0000

Came on to blog about my new love affair but saw a typo that spelled "professional" as "Prossenial", and I got super mortified and my hand in between started to tingle in this disgusting way and so I'm just here to strictly touch base today.

Want to say: I still really think that the color and template for my blog were spot on(half brit here!)and that I deserve a more lively(but respecful) comments section.
Thanks to all those that have supported my blog through this catastrophic time. Fern Mcfern said that if I talk about Jeremy Sisto I'll get some hits but that is so dishonest and I simply am not aware of who that is and you will not hear me mention Jeremy Sisto in this blog. Fern McFern(Alisa changed her names for good reason- false stalking accusations from some insane imbecilic stranger with an adorable nickname etc).

Fern's a pain in my tooshie but she's a proud person and this has made her an overheated recluse. She can't even blog in peace and she was told by a birdie that the city attorney reads her blog-- surely hoping that she transforms into what they need her to be for their highly stupid purposes-- some rabid irrational cursing thing-- now I'm sure they wait for her to make threats at public officials and I'm just saying that Godot and Moshiach will come first. I doubt the city attorney will get what that means but I can't be bothered. I don't want to be rude to city workers but from what I've seen you have treated Fern very terribly and I will be a witness.

Need to say: Sorry, feeling to fragile to risk lots today

healing and wellness- major typo fixed

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 20:52:00 +0000

My hand is healing but I still get sad when I realize that the same time last year I could have hired a professional healer and would probaby be tip top by now.

The wellness clinic called and I was rude to them because they only call to find out about the status of my "debt" and never inquire about how well I am etc.

Just read that Scott Boxenbaum who's dad got him an awesome website is a major Democrat/liberal and that concerns me as Fern Mcfern plans to sue him by October, and I want him to have all his money to donate to liberal causes.

My hand is throbbing and a co blogger is texting me. Must be more cautious with multitasking ugh.

I'm not dead thank you very much

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 16:42:00 +0000

I'm fine! The first day I feel better and it's 9/11 and a noncompatible moon.

can't wait to play catch up after I get the use of my hand back~

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 01:57:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 01:20:00 +0000

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ACAI is for real unlike the pomegranates

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 17:26:00 +0000

Acai is awesome. I'm better and I apologize to those who's comments were not read because of issues with the browser. Alisa was experimenting with a bit torrent and ever since challenges have cropped up that have preventing me from blogging.

Again I apologize and hope that my readers have not left for good.

I'm quite busy as I've begun growing herbs again and basil requires constant attention.

I just came on to say hi to you giss (still struggling with my you guys problem. sigh) and to highly reccomend acai as it has renewed my desire to go on living(long story) Don't want to be TMI so I'll stop there and wish you all peace and love and access to gourmet etc.

T

I think Alisa has messed with my comments section

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 12:36:00 +0000

My comment section must be broken. I have over 260 facebook and twitter friends and there is no way that none of them is worried about where I have gone or if I have died.

They sure should have worried as all this time I've been hanging on to dear life. I had gluten poisoning. Remember how I told this blog that I wasn't indeed allergic to gluten. Well, it turns out that I am and that doctors don't at all neccessarily know what they hell they are doing. So, i ate all kinds of treats irrespective of gluten and I passed out and was in a state of near death. I was too weak to even type and that sucks.

Anyway, catch up feels overwhelming. My lifestyle has changed so since we last "spoke." I now shop almost exclusively at the 99 cents story and am writing an e-book called, " below the poverty line and loving it." It's going to put a really postive spin on indigence and detail how I've been mananging to live luxuriously on 23 dollars a day. Of course, that doesn't include rent and utilities but that's for another book when I lose the house and try to stay cheerful in a much less cozy one.

As my readers know I was affluent all my life. Money was just no object due to a great grandfather who I'd never met but still saw fit to fund my life. But, just when I'd reached my middle years Mr. Bernie Madoff made away with most if not all of my money. The story can be found on the blog as repeating it only causes me to shake all over.

Now my Napa Cottage, my purchasing of only organic food, and my sanity have all been compromised. Tarra didn't know she had it in her but she has turned this into an E-book and is hopeful that this one will launch her back to the upscale lifestyle in which she has grown accustomed. It will discuss how costly gluten free products are and how very wrong that is and how I plan to get legislation on this as soon as I recover fully. It will discuss a lot but you will have to buy it to find out. LOL.

I have much to complain about regarding my webmistress, Alisa, and shall do so when I return.

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 13:42:00 +0000

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Trying to stay positive as I suffer

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 18:06:00 +0000

My comment section must be on the FRITZ. I've been away and very very ill and I just can't understand why more likeminded vegan lesbian antiheterosexist probiotic individuals haven't seen fit to come and say, "Hi"

I really am saddened by the lack of support as I lead a life of stressed out indigence.

My sport drink says it's prebiotioc and I'm excited. So now probiotic macrobiotic anti biotic and now Prebiotic! I'm hoping that this will do the trick and I won't ever again again sick. Sickness sucks! LOL.

Awesome variety of biotics and I think if I keep paying such keen attention I will be fine.

link working?

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:38:00 +0000

link test and articles sent by alisa

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:36:00 +0000

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Alisas mom is not all that!

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 15:40:00 +0000

Oh mi God, Alisa is pressuring me again to admit that her mothers is "the cutest thing that ever lived" and I just don't get it.

She is ooohing and ahhhing about how her mother just told the person on the phone that she is vidow and that she called her doctor, dr. dis(rather than the whole name as she just calls most things this and that(dis and dat) nowadays. Alisa is aggresively hugging her mother now while her mother is on the phone which I think is rude and now she has just sucked on her mothers eye which is worse than rude... I think I'm going to start taping what her mother says on the phone and try to carefront alisa about how her mother isn't all that.

I hated my mom.

xo,
tarra

better business beareau or rip off report?

noreply@blogger.com (whomever runs the particular blog) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 15:12:00 +0000

I don't like to sound aggressive but... I just ripped a cashier a new asshole. I'm in L.A again and it turned out I wasn't allergic to gluten much less whey so my budget again doesn't permit only organic. So, I had to get kitty food at Ralphs and almost got tricked into buying into their buy 10 and get something like 5 dollars off deals. I've been burned by those before. Anyhow, back to me reaming out that damned cashier. "Is plastic okay?'
I wouldn't know what exactly to say last year but now I know that that is a leading question and I can object!

Is plastic Ok is not a yes and no answer and that cashier is trying to make it real hard to say, "hey, that's not ok." And, I suspect that is why clothe bags are still the exception rather than the rule and that is why my stress level is out of control before lunchtime and it is why I am more in need of a life coach than ever and can't get over how badly the interviews have been going. More about that later and more about how I found out that gluten is not an issue etc.

But, now I need to finish up my e-mail to Ralph's and get that cashier fired(or even jailed) and then loads of concentrated breaths as I'm pretty sure my heart just palpitated.

p.s I must have been really out of touch cuz I just learned about Acai berry and feel the wings of rational expectation flapping again. Sure, I'm well aware of possible dissapointment and am still getting over the goji berry hoax. Still, natural cures are a passion of mine and I'll keep trying.